"Possible" side-effects, ha.

Over the past week, I have felt *wretched*. The aches, fatigue, and dizziness of the Antibiotic Cellular Death Explosion ^{TM the Infamous BlueJay} just kept going. But worse was the fact that I was horribly, horribly depressed. Crying every day, even with the way my year has been, is not normal for me. Emotionally, I felt as numb and fragile as I did in January, right after Mom passed away.

So I looked up ALL the side-effects of my new antibiotic, and oh hey! "Possible side-effects may included depression, anxiety, mood swings, insomnia, confusion, and panic" Yeah, not taking that particular antibiotic anymore.

I have a check-in with my doc today, and we'll talk about the next thing to try. I'm staying on the Rifampin, because that IS knocking down the marker numbers for the Lyme disease, and it doesn't make me crazy. Now to just wait for the remains of the Biaxin to leave my system, so I can start feeling more like myself.

Also

Because he deserves his very own entry: The Stroppy One has been incredibly supportive through this nonsense. In fact, when I mentioned that maybe I should look up the side effects and see if there were any mental/emotional ones, he was very adamant about YES DO THAT NOW. THIS IS NOT NORMAL FOR MY GOTHY GIRL.

And to make me feel better, last night he took me out for fancy vegetarian food. (Carmelita's in Greenwood, which is one of my favorite restaurants.) He has also called in one of my emotional support network to come stay with us for the next few days, while I finish prepping for Mourning Market.

I am very lucky to have him, and I wanted to say that publicly. I love you, Pete!