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Ahahahahahaha.

::glares::

I've previously ranted about my relationship to the Insomnia Fairy. At length. I am a life-long insomniac; I have vivid memories of being six or seven and being awake all night; I quietly played with my stuffed animals and told myself stories.

Now, when I can't sleep, I ... fret. Glare at the ceiling while being VERY VERY angry that I'm not able to fall asleep. I also tell myself stories, listen to the Stroppy One breathe while he's sleeping, and sometimes get up and tootle around the internets. (Which is occasionally a not-very clever plan, and leads to impulse purchases. Whoops?)

Tho' recently, the not-sleeping has not been happening as often, because my amazing doctor finally decided that me taking maintenance meds to help me sleep was FAR better than being chronically sleep-deprived. It turns out that the wavery, flickery things at the edge of my vision? Not something that everyone had, and not really supposed to be there! I had no idea! This getting regular sleep thing is kinda nifty.
cupcake_goth: (hiding)
( Apr. 26th, 2007 01:26 am)
No, really. You shouldn't have.

Wow, being asleep right now would have been nice. Especially what with the whole feeling like I was going to crash face-down onto my keyboard for all of Wednesday.
(This post is mostly for my own reference; I'm going to start keeping better track of my visits from the Insomnia Fairy, and see if there is any sort of pattern to them. I'm glumly certain there isn't and I'm just cursed, but I won't really know unless I start keeping track.)

It's 5:46 AM. I have had, ooooh, about half an hour's worth of sleep, which happened around 3:30.

Last night, I fell asleep sometime after 3:30 AM, but managed to stay asleep. (That was after taking half an Ambien at 1AM, and usually half an Ambien knocks me out in no time at all. It did on Monday night ...)

Tomorrow night (oh fine, tonight, even though I don't think I've had enough sleep for it to count as a brand new day), I will not mess around with this half-an-Ambien nonsense. Especially since on Thursday morning, I have to be in Redmond at 9 AM.

I'm trying very hard not to fall into the trap of taking something to help me fall asleep every night (which is why I didn't take anything tonight). There are times when I despair that sleep only through medication is my fate, and I don't like that notion one little bit.
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