threat level: emilie autumn

[cupcake_goth]

I'm not sure if listening to Emilie Autumn's Opheliac on repeat means I'm already in Crazytown, but I know it's a signpost.

Part of it is the ambient anxiety from :: waves hands :: everything. And I know another part of it is that I'm so overwhelmed that I can't be as supportive or there for my friends as I want. Therapy is helping, but that's still on a loop in my brain.

Another part is that I am so goddamn tired all the time. Just ... all the time. Even tho' I took Friday off as a self care/resting day, I still feel overwhelmed and exhausted.

I am seriously considering buying the Triple Dagger locket from Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab, not to use for perfume, but to use it to hold a Xanax and an Ativan and add to it my 24/7 talismans so I have them at all times. I'm pretty sure that's another sign that I'm on the path to Crazytown. 

Comments

[leenerella]

Solidarity on the tired thing... I don't love this for us.

[solstice_lilac]

I feel this. It is so hard to turn off the anxious brain, especially with so many reasons for, as you aptly described it, ambient anxiety. Taking a day is vital, but I hope you can get more time than that. I am trying to find ways to make routine time to rest (that is healthy rest, not rotting/scrolling fake rest) but even that is harder than it really should be. We are all in this together, though--I do not doubt that your friends know they have your support!

Have you been able to resume HRT? That made such a big difference in my fatigue level, and I remember you had to discontinue it at least temporarily.

[staxxy]

Anxiety is a gigantic monster in all of our lives tbh. To which end I carry Xanax with me everywhere I go.

[melworks]

I can relate to the being tired all the time thing. Everyone I know seems to be suffering from varying levels of fatigue, but that just seems to be the world we live in nowadays.

[melchar]

Sympathies about the feeling tired all the time. The annoying CONSTANT anxiety caused by our current version of Nero is making me feel so twitchy right now. Then the anxiety make it difficult to sleep or get decent amounts of rest.

However, I love my BPAL triple dagger locket [which I do use as a scent sachet] - so I recommend purchasing one. Nothing wrong with that. Nothing wrong with being tense or unhappy ... it's just being realistic.

[danabren]

All of us are exhausted all the goddamn time.

Do what gives you joy, but surely there is a less expensive just as beautiful locket for holding emergency pharma.

[cupcake_goth]

I'm testing this anti-anxiety jewelry idea with a silver locket I already have. :)

[danabren]

Stashbusting jewelry FTW!