vanity and self-image monsters

I've realized that I want a photo shoot. I want someone to take pictures of me in my pretty clothes, with fun hats and/or wacky hair. However, hard on the heels of that realization is the chorus of self-image demons saying "But you hardly ever look good in photos. You always get self-conscious and make unflattering facial expressions right when the photo is taken. Why bother, you'll look horrible.

The thing is, I DO get self-conscious, and it shows in a whole bunch of the photos taken of me at events over the last few years. It doesn't make me particularly happy, but it's true.

(Yes, Stax my dove, I know we still need to figure out when you're going to take pictures of me. I haven't forgotten.)

I want pictures. I want pictures taken of me where I'll look good. I want pictures taken by someone who won't spend two minutes BEFORE taking the picture saying things like "No, you're making a face. Hmmm, that doesn't look right. Stop making a face. Wait ... no", because that makes me even MORE self-conscious and awkward.

So um, yeah. Pictures.

sigh

Obviously, I'm having a bit of a self-image and self-confidence slump. Maybe the exercising every weekday morning (which I've done for 4 days now) will improve things.