Uuuuugh

[cupcake_goth]

With yesterday's round of sleep and soaking at the spa, I was feeling better. "Thursday!" I said. "Thursday will be productive!"

Then not only did the Insomnia Fairy visit (the last time I looked at the clock was 4am), but when I finally fell asleep I kept waking up, and the sleep was full of unsettling dreams. Why brain, why?

So, I'm kinda useless today. I feel weirdly jetlagged, and with a low-to-mid level storm front of anxiety mixed with a general bad mood and snappishness*. Today is going to be comfort movies while working on a hand sewing project, with the hope that I can be productive with writing tonight.







*I also have a layer of annoyed on top of this, because I feel like I should do my best to ignore how I'm feeling and/or apologize for it. Ah, the joys of emotional landmines and emotional labor expectations. (Not that the Stroppy One expects me to apologize for my feelings, but y'know. Girl socialization and all that.)

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[fufaraw]

As you know, Bob, high winds make me anxious, and we had sustained winds of 22MPH with gusts 35 and higher last night. We lost power and internet briefly. But because of the anxiety, I didn't get to sleep until after 5AM, woke sometime after 6AM and was awake for a while. The phone woke me at 9:50.

So naturally, sitting to catch up on email, etc., and I dozed off over the computer for probably an hour. No coffee, no food, no AM meds, and headed for OMG, sick.

Sleep is an evil, avoidant beast. I have had tea, toast, and meds, and am thinking seriously about a formal (that is, horizontal) nap. Preventing it is expectation of getting some things done, feeling like I'm not entitled to slack off, and guilt at doing so anyway.

I need to give the bears their annual brush, dust, and sponge bath, change the crib linens, and rearrange them all to fit the Jellycats in among them. Should be fun, but...naaap.

[staxxy]

this is just a gentle reminder that forcing writing never really works out very well.

The weather is being fairly unkind to those of us sensitive to it. *hugs*