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[cupcake_goth]

Guess who ending up having a sobbing anxiety attack right at bedtime?

Guess who had stress nightmares all night?

We were trying to figure out some things related to the holidays, and I just ... went over the edge. I haven't felt anything like a holiday spirit for years now, and last night the sucking void and death of joy were overwhelming. So, there was vaguely a reason for the meltdown, but it ramped up hard and fast.

Which means, of course, I feel like crap. I will probably tap out of work this afternoon, go to the spa, and then work this evening.

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In other holiday angst news, I'm trying to decide if I want to risk making gingerbread bats.

CON: Gluten. Sugar. Also, takes an entire afternoon, and it's not like I have a lot of free time at the moment.

PRO: I could probably risk one bat a day with my coffee, instead of my daily digestive biscuit (it's a mild British cookie thing). Baking gingerbread bats might help with my lack of holiday anything.

Meh. I dunno.

Comments

[jengalicious]

I wish I could make the holiday sadness go away, but I am so glad you are taking care of yourself. And you are. So please don't discredit how hard you are trying.

[oldhalloween]

Best of both worlds? Pay someone who could use the holiday funds to make the cookies for you? :o )
I am sorry about the anxiety. :::hugs:::

[m_cobweb]

I'm doing my level best to ignore that there is a holiday season this year. Selective attention ftw.

[ironymaiden]

would it help to make the gingerbread dough GF?
https://glutenfreeonashoestring.com/soft-chewy-gluten-free-gingerbread-men/

[cupcake_goth]

Sadly, I looked up the nutritional info for a lot of GF gingerbread cookies, and one cookie would almost put me over my daily carb allowance. Boooo.

[sistawendy]

Consider yourself hugged, young lady.

[gatheringrivers]

How hard is it to make your own "digestive biscuit" from scratch? You could cut that into gingerbread man shapes instead. :)

(I'm not sure what a "digestive" biscuit actually DOES....or is it just a random biscuit flavor?)

[cupcake_goth]

I have never looked into digestive biscuit recipes!

I don't know what they're actually supposed to do. Be a mild stodgy treat, possibly to settle someone's stomach? They taste like less sweet arrowroot biscuits, IMO.

[gatheringrivers]

I've made cookies from coconut flour before. If you like coconut (and nobody has coconut or tree nut allergies) that's an option as well, and I can dig up my coconut-sugar-cookie recipe for ya. :)

[solstice_lilac]

I've been meaning to make gingerbread bats, too, to get myself more into the spirit of the season and all, but it just seems like too big of a project right now. Maybe this weekend.

I hope you were able to get some time off, some spa time, and a much better night's sleep!

[bork]

Yes. Lots of hugs.

And I think that looking into digestive biscuit recipes might satisfy both the baking itch, and also give you something tasty to eat.

Digestive biscuit bats?

[bork]

Yes! You can make digestive biscuit bats!

https://www.jamieoliver.com/news-and-features/features/homemade-digestive-biscuits/

Helping,
Dwayne

[melchar]

BIG hugs! This has been a gut-punch of a year. I understand how this winter is feeling anything -but- festive. You are not alone.