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[cupcake_goth]

Dad is still in the hospital, but there is hope they'll discharge him on Friday. His medical team, after lots of tests, still don't know where the source of the infection is, which is why he's still there and getting IV antibiotics. If they can't figure out the source, they will install a port in his arm and send him home, then the home care people will come and teach him how to inject antibiotics into the port. 

I am less than enthused* about him being sent home to learn how to do IV(ish) antibiotics, but we all want him out of the hospital sooner rather than later.

Every day he smiles at me and says, "I appreciate you visiting, but you don't have to come every day, you know." Then I stare at him blankly and respond, "If our positions were reversed ...?" He has the grace to look sheepish at this. 

He's doing okay, He's tired, he's groggy, but he's still very much himself. However, I had a sobbing meltdown when I got home, because I can apparently only repress freakouts for about 8 hours. I suppose that's a testament to all the therapy I've done, but it's still inconvenient. Can't I have a month or so of repressing my freakouts, just as a treat?


I told Mal and Jeff to check with me on Saturday to see if I'm still listening to non-stop Fall Out Boy - the Follie au Deux album specifically - because if I go more than 4 days with it on solid repeat, I should probably talk to trusted people/ask for help. As the greeting card says, "You've been posting a lot of song lyrics and we're all worried about you". 

 

 

*That is such an understatment that there is no appropriate font to indicate it. 

Comments

[oldhalloween]

Not ideal only he is likely to feel better at home. Hard to sleep in a hospital. Injecting in to the port is not as scary as it sounds. A little scary if you are not used to needles. Sending healing energy for your dad and love and light to you both!

[melworks]

I'm so sorry that you're having such a bad time. I hope your dad gets better soon.

[archersangel]

hope he gets better soon.

[full_metal_ox]

Seconding oldhalloween that your dad is likely to do better Your dad has the invaluable advantage of a devoted daughter (and yes, how it sucks that quality time isn’t necessarily pleasant time. My dad—who’d meant the lines about “in sickness and in health”—helped at home with my mom’s chemo ports, and remarked that it made him feel like Ygor tending the Bride of Frankenstein.)

I hope that you, too, are receiving the material and psychological support you need; my apologies for having little I can offer you, but perhaps you might derive some diversion from Louie Zong’s latest ghost song:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kh_MphodoGA

[danabren]

Thank you for that link <3

[full_metal_ox]

And apologies for the garbled syntax, since I was interrupted in the process of drafting my post; I’d intended to say that cupcake_goth’s father would do better in familiar surroundings.

[staxxy]

covid has certainly made staying IN the hospital sub-optimal. Injecting one's self with meds is preferable but only by a hair. I am happy they think he is well enough to handle doing it himself at home, however. It speaks well of how he is doing and responding to the treatments they are giving him. <3

[danabren]

I'm sorry for this whole situation. May he be released soon with a positive resolution.

[tiggymalvern]

I hope your dad recovers soon and the infection gets resolved. As long as he's still of sound mind and reasonable dexterity, the self-injection through a port will not be a big deal, honestly.

[sirriamnis]

Hugs. I hear you on all of it. I'm glad he's getting care. And I understand the repressing breakdowns for only so long.

Let us know if there's anything we can do.