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( May. 18th, 2017 10:07 pm)
I apparently am still in the denial stage about the news about Chris Cornell. I won't say it doesn't seem possible, but it still seems unreal.

I never really knew him, but the Seattle music scene in the late 80s / early 90s was an incredibly small world. I ended up at basement shows and house parties with a lot of people who went on to become famous in the grunge scene, and I will always have a lot of emotions tied up in that music.

One of the best concerts I ever went to was the KISW Rising Star show on November 17, 1988. The lineup:

Mother Love Bone*


Jane's Addiction

Today's news also sent me on a weird search for the existence of a Soundgarden t-shirt that I owned long ago, bought at the show they headlined for Bumbershoot 1990. I found it on a Japanese vintage clothing shop, where apparently it sold for almost $200. My shirt has long since vanished, thanks to one of my exes. I'm connected to him on FB; I'm a tiny bit tempted to message him and see if he still has my damn shirt, because I want it back. But I think I'll let that bit of the past go, and just think fondly of the concerts. (Not of the ex, that's for damn sure.)

*(And I still have moments of being mad at Andy Wood for the waste of his life and talent.)
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( May. 15th, 2017 12:15 pm)
Let's see, where were we ... last week, I returned from Disneyland (yes, I miss the Haunted Mansion, thank you for asking), worked two days, and then hopped on a bus to Portland for the Vampire Ball.

What these photos don't really show: the almost entire can of glitter hairspray that I covered myself with. Every Halloween season, Value Village/Savers stocks glitter hairspray that is not really hairspray, but is microglitter in an aerosol. It is AMAZING. It is also insidious; I suspect I'm never going to get all the glitter out of that dress, which is fine with me, but The Husband will make That Face about it.

The event was lovely; in fact, it was one of the better VMBs of the past few years. There were a wide range of performers, and the new layout of the Melody Ballroom was wonderful. While I missed the previous stage (which has been removed in the remodel), having the stage directly opposite the doors to the main ballroom was great.

Rhias came down for the event -- her first ever time at VMB! -- and had a great time. She looked fantastic, and the headpiece she made was epic.


Sunday morning, before I wandered off to the bus home, I indulged in a stuffed waffle at the hotel restaurant. (Stuffed with Brie and ham, and topped with pear compote.) It was delicious. I am paying for it now. I know part of what I'm feeling is exhaustion -- it's been a busy couple of weeks! -- but the upswing in brain fog and joint pain? Yeah, I'm pretty sure that's due to the whacking great block of carbs & gluten I had. I guess I know for sure now that I can't eat like that anymore? Ugh, send coffee and laudanum.
I am rethinking parts of my outfit for Vampire Ball.


. . .

I know. I KNOW. I am ridiculous. But while I liked the burgundy lace dress and burgundy skirt at Bats Day, I don't think it will be elaborate enough for VMB, even with the addition of the sequinned lace collar/breastplate. Also, I cannot find the antique sequinned velvet & lace overskirt that I was planning on wearing over the burgundy skirt. The house has eaten it.

The outfit I'm kinda-sorta planning, and will do a test-run of tomorrow:

- Ankle-length, accordion-pleated A-line metallic silver skirt, worn over a petticoat, which means it won't be pleated anymore, but have interesting textural details.

- Ankle-length black tulle skirt, which has 3 layers of wide tulle ruffles, trimmed in black lace.

- Black satin overbust corset.

- Black lace dress, which I will do a quick bit of gathering to two points in the back so it has a sort of polonaise effect.

- Black sequinned lace collar/breastplate thing.

- Hair pulled up (with a teased fall to add a lot more volume without having to completely backcomb my real hair), sprayed with micro-glitter spray, and a black and blackened-burgundy rose crown.
I did not move into the Haunted Mansion. Not for lack of trying, tho', because I went on that ride TWENTY TIMES IN FIVE DAYS. Yes, seriously, and that's a new record for me.

I went on other rides, too. Pirates, Peter Pan, Mr. Toad, the teacups (wheee! spinny!), Alice's Adventures, the carousel, the Tiki Room, the Jungle Cruise, Monsters Inc., ... I just went on the Mansion the most. Because it is my spiritual home.

I also went to the Bats Day Black Market, which was lovely, and saw a bunch of my loved ones who live in CA. I miss everyone already.

In case anyone didn't see the photos and wants to, everything got posted to my Instagram:

Now I catch up on work for two days, then head off to PDX for the Vampire Masquerade Ball.
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( May. 3rd, 2017 10:17 pm)
Goth Upkeep has been done (including a gel manicure).

Travel info and park passes have been printed.

The Very Large Suitcase is packed. (Multiple fluffy skirts and lace dresses, bloomers, a parasol, and a hatbox holding TWO epic gothy sunhats. Look, if I could have steamer trunks and a valet to travel with, I WOULD.)

The carry-on is packed, except for the things that go in last-minute. Meds, makeup, phone charger, Merricat Bunny.


Why yes, I may be a little giddy about this.
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( May. 2nd, 2017 10:23 am)
Soooooo, it's been a little over a month on this wacky ketogenic diet. I'm not counting calories (because that way lies madness for me), but I am staying around 30g of carbohydrates a day. So, no bread, no pasta, no starches, and very little fruit. But lots of leafy greens, a fair amount of protein, and fat. On this sort of eating plan, at least 70% of my food needs to be fat.

Things I've noticed:

- Holy bats, my daily pain and inflammation levels are reduced an amazing amount.
- I have more energy.
- I have less brain fog.
- Cutting out sugar was not as hard as I feared, mostly because after a ton of reading, I found a sugar substitute I like (Swerve).
- Aaaaaand I've lost something like 13 lbs. That's not why I'm doing this, but it's a side effect I'm in favor of.

Interestingly, I don't really have any cravings for starchy food. Sure, I occasionally have a mild longing for mac&cheese, because that was my One True Food, but it's not a strong enough craving that I have to have it OMG. I know I'm going to fall off the wagon at Disneyland for at least one day, because I'm going to a fancy tea party with Meg, and there is no way to avoid sugar at something like that. But I'm going to be very selective about which sugary treats I DO eat.

The only downside? Holy hell, I kinda loathe all of the food bloggers who have ketogenic recipes. I don't want stories about how you're converting everyone to this type of eating! I don't care about your leisurely trips to the farmer's market! I don't want to read your smug, sanctimonious food sermons! Just give me the recipe for keto popovers, so I can try it and see if it works for me!
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( Apr. 29th, 2017 02:23 pm)
Well, I was going to go over to Thea's today and work on the lace and sequin collar/breastplate for Vampire Ball. However, plans have changed to taking a lot of meds, and heading to the spa.

Stupid weather-triggered migraines.

(The new(ish) eating plan has helped a LOT with my general pain and inflammation. But changes in barometric pressure? Still trigger migraines. This is the lamest superpower ever.)
I am. If I post more, other people will post more? Or something.

ANYway, last night I did a bunch of prep work on the lace collar/breastplate thing that I plan on wearing as part of my Vampire Ball outfit, including the vintage sequinned collar that Thea found for me at a yard sale. All of that looks great, and I'll sew everything down tonight.

However (and you totally knew there was a caveat, didn't you?), the (amazing! wonderful!) resin bobcat skull that I bought is too big to work as I envisioned. It's a great piece, and Ann did a fantastic job on it. But it's too thick? Too much depth? It just doesn't look right on the lace collar/breastplate, and makes the whole thing veer into looking like a Halloween costume. A well-made Halloween costume, but. Not the aesthetic I'm going for.

So! Lots of digging through jewelry boxes later, I have a couple of pieces that may work for the focal centerpiece at the neck. I'm also going to go through Thea's stuff on Saturday, and I have a huge vintage black rhinestone brooch coming to me from eBay. If I'm really lucky, the whole thing will be finished before I leave for Bats Day.


I LEAVE FOR DISNEYLAND IN ONE WEEK. ::flails excitedly::

Huh. I should write up my packing list.
I was idly reminiscing about the old seagoth shopping trips, where everyone would meet up at one spot, and then we would carpool to various thrift stores.

And then my brain went "Wait, didn't one of the recent net.goth Convergences have an event where they chartered a bus and did the same sort of thing?"

So now I am pondering the logistics of organizing a gothy shopping trip where we charter a bus and hit four or five thrift stores. Everyone pay a certain amount toward the cost of the bus, and off we go.


- No worrying about ratio of drivers to non-drivers.

- I could promote this on FB as a "shopping with Auntie Jilli" event, and I'm pretty sure the babygoths would come out in droves.


- Cost, obviously.

- Would there be enough interest that translated to people actually paying the money to do this?

- Do I really want to / have time to organize an event?

In other words, my brain is ridiculous and perhaps not to be trusted.
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( Apr. 24th, 2017 10:29 pm)
Finished hat? Maybe? I think so.

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( Apr. 24th, 2017 03:39 pm)
Floof! Floof on hat!

Not shown: the dark burgundy lace lining I sewed to the underside of the brim. That lace matches the dress I'm wearing (as well it should, as it's from when I shortened the dress), and helps create a better transition between the darker dress and the more-red-than-burgundy hat.

I'm almost done with it. I think I want to add two more roses -- tucked under each side of the bow, facing the back of the hat -- and sew this pendant (which I've had forever) onto the bow. I guess I'll pin all of that on and see how it looks.
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( Apr. 22nd, 2017 02:44 pm)
I was going to spend today pinning and sewing the venise lace onto the edges of the lace collar/breastplate thing I'm making as part of my Vampire Ball outfit. But first I had to take the old lace off, because the base collar/front had originally been a stretchy lace shirt of mine, and the narrow ruffled lace down the front would add too much bulk, not work with the intended design, and make attaching the resin bobcat skull more difficult than it needed to be.

Guess who kept tearing the damn thing? AAAAAAUUUGH.

But hey! Did you know that you can buy lace collar/dickies on Amazon with Prime shipping? So that arrives Tuesday, which gives me enough time to attach the venise lace and do some beading before next weekend, at which point I'll take the whole thing (and bobcat skull) with me to Thea's, where we will figure out how to attach the skull and add even more sparkly accents. And because Thea is 1) an awesome friend, and 2) Queen of Crafting and DIY, she's already said that if I need to leave the whole thing with her so she can work on it while I'm off at Disneyland, that's no problem.

This means I can spend part of today gathering all the assorted burgundy and black floof I may want to add to this hat. It's a few shades lighter than the dress I'm wearing it with, but pretty close to the skirt; if I add darker burgundy accents to it (more lace, silk roses), along with some black tulle (and maybe black roses, IDK), that will tie the whole thing together.

Yes, these are the sorts of things I do for fun.
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( Apr. 21st, 2017 04:07 pm)
I am now visiting the land of Migraine Hangover, which is much better than the ... 3? 4? days I spent in MigraineLand. I woke up this morning, realized that why yes, something in my neck was out, this wasn't just a reaction to the ridiculously changeable weather we've been having. So I went to the chiropractor. A bunch of hideous grinding and crunching noises later, my pain levels have dropped substantially.

My chiro has no idea why my neck/atlas keeps going out of alignment, but has suggested that I look into Indian Club exercises to improve the strength in my arms, shoulders, and neck. Okay? He loaned me some starter clubs, and I'm going to watch some tutorials on ye olde internets. Apparently it's ... swinging clubs around. Sure! Let me learn to wave sticks around in a possibly menacing way!

(I asked him if I could just use parasols instead of the clubs. He sighed and told me no.)


The new(ish, I've been doing it for a little over a month) low carb eating regime is actually helping with the general inflammation and pain issues I've been having. It also has been helping with brain fog. On the one hand, I miss mac&cheese SO MUCH. On the other hand, having a much lower level of background pain on a daily basis is AMAZING. And, I won't lie, this is also leading to weight loss, which means that the Body Image Demons are being quieter, which is really, REALLY nice. That's not the reason I'm doing this, but it's a nice side effect.


Sometime this weekend, I really need to write a To Do list for everything I need to get done before Bats Day and Vampire Ball. But hey! The stress levels from work are dropping, which is something I kinda despaired of ever happening. Even the looming presence of multiple 6am planning meetings next week isn't making me want to run away and hide! I mean, I'm not thrilled about 6am meetings, but this time it won't be just me reminding everyone about documentation.
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( Apr. 18th, 2017 09:55 pm)

Why yes, I have pretty much planned my outfit for the actual day of Bats Day (the Sunday), and have almost completely planned the rest of my wardrobe for the rest of trip.

I'm trying to concentrate on other things that need to be done (oh, work stuff, writing a new Gothic Charm School post, finalizing details about Vampire Ball and working on one of the accessories I'm going to be wearing at that), but OMG DISNEYLAND.

... in many ways, I am a very simple creature. Give me vampire books, decorative boys in eyeliner, and repeated trips through the Haunted Mansion, and I am entirely happy.
Travel home from the Ottawa trip was fraught. The nice Air Canada lady at the Ottawa airport put me on standby for the flight that was an hour earlier (I had gotten to the airport early), so I made it to Toronto with plenty of time before my flight to Seattle! And that flight was running 45 minutes or so late, so fine. Time to get extra tea, to actually sit down and have food, all that good stuff.

After I went through security, passport control, and US Customs, I wandered over to my gate. Finally boarded the plane, aaaand then an announcement: readiness check showed that they needed to change a tire, so all of us needed to deplane and wait in the walkway. A couple of us passengers asked the flight staff, and they said we didn't need to take our carry-on luggage with us, so we all trooped off.

10-15 minutes later, another announcement. Wait, no, we need to go back on the plane, collect our belongings, and go back to the gate.

And then, the waiting. They brought us snacks. They bribed the kids with candy. They bribed the kids with coloring books. THREE HOURS after we were supposed to take off, we finally reboarded the plane. After they did a last-minute reboot of the plane OS.

Have I mentioned that on my flight OUT from Seattle, the plane had to be essentially jump started? Yeah. I don't think I'll be flying Air Canada again.


Last night I went to see The Damned with Rhias! It's the 40th anniversary tour, and it was SO MUCH FUN. Dave Vanian looks like a rock 'n roll version of Vincent Price. I may have squeaked and flailed when he came on stage. Maybe.

And, because it was Easter, they performed "White Rabbit" during an encore. Dave Vanian wore a pair of bunny ears someone had tossed on stage. DAVE VANIAN. BUNNY EARS.

Just in case you didn't see the photos on the other social media sites I hang out on, here's what I wore, and a good shot of my makeup:

Hi peeps, I'm in Ottawa. My team continues to be awesome, my new writer is going to be SO MUCH HELP omg.

Random bits of hilarity from the trip so far:

- Yesterday morning, I found the office building with no problem, having been there before. But I didn't remember which floor my company was on, and there were no signs in the lobby. So, vaguely remembering the 5th floor, I hopped on the elevator and went on up.

The doors open, and there's a table with ... a ... security guard? Who stares at me, completely gobsmacked.

"Hi!" I say, "I think I went to the wrong floor. Could you tell me what floor [my company] is on?"

More staring. Then, in a heavy French accent, says, "One moment", and gets on their walkie-talkie. A minute later, their supervisor steps out of the elevator.

After a few minutes of discussion, the supervisor escorts me around the building until we find the correct floor for [my company]. The security guard supervisor shakes my hand, bids me a good day, and leaves.

It turns out the 5th floor is where an office of the Canadian government is located.

- Nowhere near as ridiculous, but when I was walking to the office this morning, a construction worker shouted "Le vampire!" at me. I cracked up and waved.


I've broken up with linear time again. I mean, I'm adjusting to the time change, kinda-sorta, but UGH. Plus, I'm still sleep-deprived from just getting here, because I had to be at the airport at 6am on Sunday morning, which meant getting up at 4:30-ish. I think I got maybe 3 hours of sleep that night.


Anyway, hiiiiiiii. How are folks?
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( Apr. 7th, 2017 03:54 pm)
Uuuggggh, day two of really vicious migraine. It was bad enough yesterday that I took the heavy-duty meds for it, but it was still there when I woke up today. This is particularly bothersome, as I get on a plane at OMG THIS IS TOO EARLY on Sunday, so I can go spend a week at the Ottawa office.

So! Today includes ALL the water and caffeine. Tomorrow involves a trip to the chiropractor, because this sort of migraine usually means there's something out of whack in my neck. Then I go to the spa, soak, and get a massage. Hopefully all of that will set me to rights, because the idea of traveling while feeling like this is not enticing.
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( Apr. 4th, 2017 01:14 pm)
This is probably going to be the last crossposted entry. That new TOS? Here's the part that really worries me:

"ATTENTION: this translation of the User Agreement is not a legally binding document. The original User Agreement, which is valid, is located at the following address:"

I am not agreeing to/signing a document that's in a language I can't read or write. Nope, nope, nope.
Also, from , some very important info:

1. The owner of a website and/or a website page on the Internet on which generally accessible information is placed and to which access exceeds 3,000 users of the Internet per day (hereinafter referred to as “blogger”) when said information is placed and used, for instance when said information is placed on the given website or website page by other users of the Internet shall ensure the observance of the legislation of the Russian Federation, for instance:

1) shall not allow the website or website page on the Internet to be used for the purpose of committing the acts punishable under a criminal law, disclosing the information classified as state or another specifically law-protected secret, disseminating the materials containing public appeals for carrying out terrorist activities or publicly justifying terrorism, other extremist materials and also the materials propagating pornography, the cult of violence and cruelty and the materials containing obscene language;

I'm not nuking my LJ account from orbit (YET), because I still need to figure out how to snag some of the photos from my scrapbook without being logged in (if you don't sign the new TOS, you're automatically logged out), but if I can't get to them w/o logging in, I will have to accept that loss. (I'm pretty sure I saved the photos I wanted to save from the scrapbook when LJ was moved to Russian servers, but I should make sure.

So. LJ peeps, I'm on Dreamwidth. If you are also on Dreamwidth, please drop me a note or something.
It's not that I’m not sleeping, because I AM; it’s just that it’s at hours completely alien to my regular body clock, so everything feels disconnected and off-kilter. While it would probably be helpful to suddenly become a morning person, doing so at the price of reality feeling kind of jello-like is not a trade-off I'm willing to make.


(Okay, I went to bed at 9:30 last night, and fell asleep sometime after 10. Like I said, I am sleeping. Just … weirdly.)

Not only have I broken up with linear time, I kinda think I want to throw all their things out on the street.
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( Mar. 7th, 2017 08:34 am)
Well, on the way to the office.



Monday night involved waking up in the middle of the night FOR NO REASON, and staying awake for a few hours. Linear time is dead to me. DEAD, I tell you. What has it done for me lately, anyway?

The meetings have all been good so far. Yes, even the one where we did personality/communication testing. Mind you, I had to fight the urge to put my head down on the conference table and laugh until I cried when the results showed that I have strong caretaker/nurturer tendencies, hate disappointing people, and will take on projects/work until I fall over because I hold myself to impossible standards AND am bad at setting boundaries.

(Those of you who know me well are now permitted to snicker and say "I TOLD YOU SO". Go on, you know you want to.)


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